Randamonium

Right, haven't been on this site for ages. Been busy.

I've started working, after Ramadhan though coz they took so long to get back to me. Interview was in July!

Anyway, have been mad busy in general.

So, adios.
No words of wisdom today.

To work or not to work. That is the question, without a question mark of course.
Final exams were over ages ago, yet here I am, having accomplished nothing in the past few weeks.

Unless of course you count my obsession with randomly baking cakes and cookies and experimenting with new types of foods and shopping. Sigh.

Nope, I haven't done much. Though the cakes and cookies did taste absolutely yummo, even if I do say so myself. ^_^.

Anyway. My current problem is that I have no idea how I have done in my exams. To be entirely truthful, I didn't try my best, which is a great dissapointment, as I had all the facilities available to me to be able to do well.
Circumstances dictated otherwise.

I am currently trying to figure out what to do with myself. It's too late to apply for postgraduate studies. I don't even know if I want to study further.
Yet.... I don't want to start working yet. I want to DO something, get out there, explore the world! Step by step. (Or from one aeroplane to another)
But, where to go? I'm not a structured person, where I plan out journeys ahead or anything, I rather think I'm spontaneous. (I think.)

Though, my primary aim would be to visit the Middle Eastern countries and check out the museums. (No, I'm not a geek, I just happen to like historical... stuff.)
Enough rambling from myself, I'm off.
Adios.

Right, exams are over.
I have no idea what to do now. I don't want to go straight into a job, but then again, I don't think I actually want to further my studies, simply because, the more I study, the more I'll be specialised in one area, which will narrow my horizons down and I just don't want to stick to one thing.
It's just so weird, that at one point, I was a high achiever and really used to push myself. I used to be really disappointed if I achieved less than 80 % in anything.
Now, I'm happy if I get the bare minimum. I guess that's not the correct attitude to anything.
I just don't know what I want to do any more. Guess I'll have to keep myself really occupied and figure out what it is that I really really want to do with my life.
Anyway, insha'allah I'll try and actually put up posts that were fundamentally supposed to be the purpose of the blog.
Well, I seem to have limitless opportunity now. I just need to be bothered..

Why do some people feel the need to know the tiniest detail of everything?
What possible need can they have for knowing everything about everything?
Seriously, I know I'm a girl and everything, but I've never felt the need to know what someone was wearing, or how they wore it or whatever..
Take for instance a conversation I had with a friend of mine regarding a woman who's new to the area and someone who shall become (in)famous in the community, simply because of who she's married to..
Friend: What does she look like?
Me: A woman
Friend: Yeah, I know, but what was she wearing? Did she look old? Who did she look like?
Me: I just gave salaam to her, I didn't pay attention to what she was wearing!
Friend: Yes, but surely you can explain what she looked like?
Me: How'd you mean?
Friend: Skinny, chubby? etc etc?
At which point I sigh and give up.
I mean what's the point in me describing someone who she'll be acquainted with at some point in the future anyway? I mean what's the benefit? Nothing will have been gained from knowing the small, minute details.
Yeah, I talk too much fair enough. Though I don't feel the need to actually go into details about who was where, wearing what, doing what, with God knows who.
Such talk usually gives rise to backbiting which gives rise to rumours...Spreading like wildfire..

Prophet Muhammad said :"Do you know what backbiting is?" They said, "God and His Messenger know best." He then said, "It is to say something about your brother that he would dislike." Someone asked him, "But what if what I say is true?" The Messenger of God said, "If what you say about him is true, you are backbiting him, but if it is not true then you have slandered him." (Muslim)

Got bored with the old one, so decided to go for a new look.
Am currently playing around with the colours used on the original template and am trying to change 'em.
Well, I didn't go through too much complication this time and am gonna try and add some random links and what not at some point in the future. Maybe.
Revision- haven't got too far. Though, I have made a timetable and have also made a syllabus/checklist thingy for each module. So, I'd say that I'm on my way! Kinda.
Poster- Well, I've made a general template and am making random diagrams for the experimental procedure and all. Other than that.. I guess I just need to put them all together...2 weeks left. Rah.
Other than that, I've gone food crazy and exercise crazy too. Just need to join a gym and I'll be sorted. Sometime in the future.
I really, really need to start studying.

I don't know if I've just gone and complicated my life.
In hindsight, I'm left wondering if there was an easier way.
Well, basically I wanted to change the layout of my blog and all, but for the life of me couldn't figure out the best way to do what I wanted to do.
I'd been searching for all these random blogs and stuff and could not figure out how to upload them, without them appaearing all mumbo jumbo and all.
Anyway, thing is I wondered if it had anything to do with the fact that I had started my blog way back in '05 and wondered if that was the reason I couldn't upload stuff.
So, I went and created a new blog with the randommest name, exported the original blog to the computer, imported the file to the new blog (before doing so, I'd already changed the setting to one that looked better than the preset templates..Then I deleted the old blog, changed the name of the new blog and Hey presto! Here's my new look blog!
Ummm...was that a silly thing to do?
Anyway, ideally I should be focusing on my poster and try and actually do SOMETHING.
However, I have got as far as ensuring that my background for the poster is pink and cream.
Awesome combination or what?!
Now, time for some randomly random posts when I shall feel inclined to do so.
Rah.

I completed my dissertation the day before it was due, printed and bound it.
Went home, read it AND shock! I had a fair few mistakes.
So, I quickly edited the problem pages and the PhD student finally got back to me about the data I wanted to include in my appendix, so it turned out I had an appendix after all! (Not that y'all know whether or not I had one to begin with.)
So, the hand-in day, 45 minutes before my lesson but approximately 3 hours(ish) before the hand in I was printing, unbinding and re-binding.
11.30 (or thereabouts): Handed in the write up. No feelings at this point.
12:45 (ish): I see some friends who are still printing and binding their work! What the hell were they thinking?!!
1:40ish: One friend's still binding the work, meanwhile, we're all panicking for her.
'Don't worry, I still have 20 minutes!'
1:55: She's handed it in..'With 5 minutes to spare'
At which point I breathe a sigh of relief!
What on earth does that say about me? I'm more worried about my friend's handing the work in than my own!
Anyway, it feels a relief to have finished it. Though I'm disappointed in myself as i didn't work to the best of my ability. Rah.
Now there's the dreaded poster to deal with.

I'm currently upto 2,560 words...
Can I make it?
Shall I take a 50/50? Phone a friend?
Oh Rah. I am sincerely lacking the motivation to go any further and I feel that the whole concept of this project is useless (or that I'm missing the point).
Seriously, I've written about 300 words for the discussion, but feel that I'm missing the point. I don't want to waffle and I don't want to cite all the journals I've read and I feel I'm getting nowhere.
It's a never ending vicious cycle, but I'll have to get on with it. Somehow.
Two days left, not including the deadline of course.
Wonder if I should stay in uni all day surrounded by my notes and stuff? Away from distraction...
On second thoughts, maybe not.

Haha...
I haven't written here, again, in a very long time.
Looking back at my previous posts I realise that it would seem I can't spell. Heh.
I am currently undergoing a minor moment of madness, as I have a dissertation due in next thursday for which I have only written 1,500 words. The word limit's 5,000. Hmm.
Anyway, I don't want to read any more journals as my eyes are going all dizzy and I feel all funny and I get into this panicky mode where I don't do anything if I feel I don't have enough time (Surely 4 days is enough! Not including today and the deadline day of course!)
I really hate this one characteristic of mine and I've read many different articles on the harms of procrastination and how to overcome it and so on and so forth, but I just. don't. want.to!
Rah.
Ah well...I guess I really should actually read some more journals.